It all started with ART...which is growing stronger everyday, but then it gave me the wisdom of trying newer creative things...
As I reflect back, in the past one year, apart from painting, I've cooked and experimented so many new dishes, made crochet flowers and learned different types of chocolate and gifted them too :)
Wow!! This is someone more than me: my husband says, looking at me, "I can do anything!!"
Really...awww.. I'm so lucky to have you darling...
And with that spirit and strength, I am proceeding forward to carry out a challenge for myself. I know "thoda filmi hai" (its a little movie story like) but I wanna put this up for myself..
Let me also, for the sake of making it clear to myself as well, make this clear that I am not a person who is unable to stick to one thing, I am...till that thing challenges me or helps me grow as a person. If whatever I do, doesn't help me I give it up. It seems difficult to put in words, but if that thing, makes me a dreamer, someone who really doesn't care what others would think if I did it and yet something which I know deep down would be good...I don't know...maybe I'm thinking too much..thinking how other would interpret it...
Okay...let's put it this way..I connect with those "things" that give me a reason, a purpose in life. A famous line from the movie "P.S. I love you: My job is to create...." and that is what I will do. That is what I want to do. To create...
But I'm also scared...what if I just end up being a bored housewife with no job or meaning. What if all this is a bad/wrong step, taken in haste. What if...
I feel like crying at such times you know, coz I feel lonely and scared. I feel how tangled I am by so many things, thinking of which we only tend to be more unhappy.
Oh Gosh...right now, there are so many thoughts running in my mind, stopping me from thinking all this. One says "Why don't you keep your life simple", another says "remember your childhood, when playing life roles, like a shop owner or a wife was not such a sad thing, then why now...why not just go ahead and play this role of whatever you do and enjoy your life as well, why take so much burden about it...is it really that bad!!?"
Hmmm...maybe not. Isn't it all about our attitude. See, my point is only that I wanna learn more and grow more, which right now is not happening with my job. So, I wanna switch to all the creative things I do. Make more art, create things...I was like just born, I'm only 2years old in this and wanna excel like anything. Because deep down it really makes me happy.
But then can't I just carry on my work and do this as well...
See..this is how it always goes, in my head. Don't know when I'll be able to resolve this, coz it really affects every other thing. Maybe someday. I'm just waiting when...
As I reflect back, in the past one year, apart from painting, I've cooked and experimented so many new dishes, made crochet flowers and learned different types of chocolate and gifted them too :)
Wow!! This is someone more than me: my husband says, looking at me, "I can do anything!!"
Really...awww.. I'm so lucky to have you darling...
And with that spirit and strength, I am proceeding forward to carry out a challenge for myself. I know "thoda filmi hai" (its a little movie story like) but I wanna put this up for myself..
Let me also, for the sake of making it clear to myself as well, make this clear that I am not a person who is unable to stick to one thing, I am...till that thing challenges me or helps me grow as a person. If whatever I do, doesn't help me I give it up. It seems difficult to put in words, but if that thing, makes me a dreamer, someone who really doesn't care what others would think if I did it and yet something which I know deep down would be good...I don't know...maybe I'm thinking too much..thinking how other would interpret it...
Okay...let's put it this way..I connect with those "things" that give me a reason, a purpose in life. A famous line from the movie "P.S. I love you: My job is to create...." and that is what I will do. That is what I want to do. To create...
But I'm also scared...what if I just end up being a bored housewife with no job or meaning. What if all this is a bad/wrong step, taken in haste. What if...
I feel like crying at such times you know, coz I feel lonely and scared. I feel how tangled I am by so many things, thinking of which we only tend to be more unhappy.
Oh Gosh...right now, there are so many thoughts running in my mind, stopping me from thinking all this. One says "Why don't you keep your life simple", another says "remember your childhood, when playing life roles, like a shop owner or a wife was not such a sad thing, then why now...why not just go ahead and play this role of whatever you do and enjoy your life as well, why take so much burden about it...is it really that bad!!?"
Hmmm...maybe not. Isn't it all about our attitude. See, my point is only that I wanna learn more and grow more, which right now is not happening with my job. So, I wanna switch to all the creative things I do. Make more art, create things...I was like just born, I'm only 2years old in this and wanna excel like anything. Because deep down it really makes me happy.
But then can't I just carry on my work and do this as well...
See..this is how it always goes, in my head. Don't know when I'll be able to resolve this, coz it really affects every other thing. Maybe someday. I'm just waiting when...
